For a moment there, Tim had thought Jason was going to kiss him. He canted his head and leaned in just a fraction of an inch to try to encourage it. Just like that, Jason was gone. Trying to get as far away from him as possible. The cold hand of disappointment reached around his heart and squeezed painfully. It was such a small thing, not even really a full on rejection, but it still stung in a way that was beyond his understanding. Why was he so disappointed?
Some sort of response bubbled in his throat, but he didn't manage to get anything out before the door closed between them. Tim took a moment, physically shaking it off like a dog after a bath. Shut down any possible thought of just going for it as soon as Jason was close enough again. Just so he could know for sure and stop having to dwell on it in the back of his mind. Rejection would be easier than not knowing. Then he could tell the little voice in the back of his head to shut up. But this was supposed to be bonding time, and he couldn't let his feelings make him do anything that could ruin it. The wrong move could sever everything the two had worked towards to be able to get along and work together.
It was hard to trust himself to behave when every cell in his body with singing with desire for him. Tim, who always had complete control over his emotions, who never let this sort of thing get in the way--he was floundering.
He didn't go anywhere. It didn't feel right to explore Jason's place in his absence, even as nosy as he was. Besides, it would be rude to go eat without him, especially when he'd been nice enough to let Tim shower off first. One of his hands reached to rub at his arm and his toes curled awkwardly against the floor. They just needed to eat, have a drink, and everything would be okay. He was determined to make everything okay.
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Some sort of response bubbled in his throat, but he didn't manage to get anything out before the door closed between them. Tim took a moment, physically shaking it off like a dog after a bath. Shut down any possible thought of just going for it as soon as Jason was close enough again. Just so he could know for sure and stop having to dwell on it in the back of his mind. Rejection would be easier than not knowing. Then he could tell the little voice in the back of his head to shut up. But this was supposed to be bonding time, and he couldn't let his feelings make him do anything that could ruin it. The wrong move could sever everything the two had worked towards to be able to get along and work together.
It was hard to trust himself to behave when every cell in his body with singing with desire for him. Tim, who always had complete control over his emotions, who never let this sort of thing get in the way--he was floundering.
He didn't go anywhere. It didn't feel right to explore Jason's place in his absence, even as nosy as he was. Besides, it would be rude to go eat without him, especially when he'd been nice enough to let Tim shower off first. One of his hands reached to rub at his arm and his toes curled awkwardly against the floor. They just needed to eat, have a drink, and everything would be okay. He was determined to make everything okay.