"Didn't do-?!?" He frowned, the expression 1 part hurt and 2 parts incredulous. He sputtered, mind rapidly firing to try and piece his thoughts into something that could be vocalized, but the sudden whiplash of the situation combined with the voltage that had been pumped into his system left him off kilter and exposed.
Tim saved him from having to speak right that very second and he huffed out a grateful sound as he used the time to haul himself up off his knees. There was a fine tremble that ran through his body that had nothing to do with having Tim melt in his arms after a long chase...but honestly, that wasn't a bad thing. Not now.
Not after...
His gaze flicked to Tim and the lenses hid his eyes by not the guilty line of his lips. Because yes, the brother thing had been a concern....but it wasn't the only one. It wasn't even the most pressing. He just hadn't put voice to his most basic fear because he knew that Tim would have tried to make him feel better about it. And he didn't deserve to feel better about it. Not really.
Yet it bubbled in his belly and he scrubbed at his face with his hands before it finally spilled out.
"You fucking saw us macking on a rooftop and your first thought was to electrocute me, 'Wing. How the fuck is that 'not judging'? We had lunch together! We traded food, bad mouthed B, laughed even! And still, the first thing you do when you see me pinning Red is to get me off of him with force?" He huffed, running his hands through his curls before slumping back against the wall he'd had Tim pinned up against.
"I know I'm a monster, I just didn't think that you saw me as one, too. Jesus..."
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Tim saved him from having to speak right that very second and he huffed out a grateful sound as he used the time to haul himself up off his knees. There was a fine tremble that ran through his body that had nothing to do with having Tim melt in his arms after a long chase...but honestly, that wasn't a bad thing. Not now.
Not after...
His gaze flicked to Tim and the lenses hid his eyes by not the guilty line of his lips. Because yes, the brother thing had been a concern....but it wasn't the only one. It wasn't even the most pressing. He just hadn't put voice to his most basic fear because he knew that Tim would have tried to make him feel better about it. And he didn't deserve to feel better about it. Not really.
Yet it bubbled in his belly and he scrubbed at his face with his hands before it finally spilled out.
"You fucking saw us macking on a rooftop and your first thought was to electrocute me, 'Wing. How the fuck is that 'not judging'? We had lunch together! We traded food, bad mouthed B, laughed even! And still, the first thing you do when you see me pinning Red is to get me off of him with force?" He huffed, running his hands through his curls before slumping back against the wall he'd had Tim pinned up against.
"I know I'm a monster, I just didn't think that you saw me as one, too. Jesus..."