Jon had been a highly emotional being in his younger years, before Granny's lessons and life forced him to be more solemn. Given the choice, he would encourage Nothing's emotions and insist on masks every time Nothing is in the lab with him.
Crane had been lucky; his short stint as a hitman never got him on the league's radar, and by the time he met Ra's no one thought about his start into the criminal underground. If he knew how cruel they had been to Nothing, it could change nothing, but he would glare more at them.
"Do you think this house is in my legal name? I'm a felon, child. I have a guy who can make a new identity. It will hold up well enough." Nodding then, as he sat back to pull the pack of cigarettes from his pants pocket. He shook two out as he lit one and held the other and the Zippo over to Nothing. An ashtray nearby, even if he didn't often smoke inside. "Fair enough, Nothing it is."
Nodding as Nothing explained, watching his boy and his birds. It was always strange to realize he had pulled together these abandoned creatures and claimed them as his own. "You felt obligated. She was a trusted adult who took care of you when you needed it most. It is understandable, even if her reasons likely had selfish intentions."
Taking a draw from the cigarette before speaking through it. "Just know if she ever comes back again, you do not have any reason to go with her. You can stay with me, and I feel it should be said, I expect nothing of you, child. Just for you to do your best, maybe go back to school if we can pull that off."
He leaned forward a little to accept that cigarette and lighter, the motion disturbing the birds enough that Nightmare hopped from his chest to the back of the chair. Craw didn't move, just grumbled at his movement, then opened his wings dramatically when Nothing moved him anyway. He would ruin his own lungs, sure...but the birds didn't need to be around it.
Sending them both back over to the couch, he waited to make sure Craw actually settled in and listened before he lit up and drew in a lungful of heat.
"What, you telling me you have no intentions of rolling me over in the middle of the night? It's apparently all I'm good for." He glared, shaking his head and holding up a hand to fend off the disapproval he was fully expecting.
"I know. I know it's bullshit. I just...sometimes it really feels like that and I either have to make bad jokes about it or throw a fit. And throwing a fit is kinda pointless, so...here we are." He didn't sound particularly happy with that fact, but he did look a little less haunted when he glanced up to meet Jon's gaze once more.
"I don't care what my first name is, but...not Todd for the last? He was an abusive asshole who hit people who didn't deserve it and I'm done having his name. Just...whatever is on your fake will work, I guess. Since 'Crane' is a little too on the nose around these parts."
Nothing has seen the lighter enough, a momento that Batman somehow has never gotten away from him. The engraving on it was certainly not Jon's initials; it was a lighter he took off Henry's body and still uses to remind himself people aren't to be trusted. Yet here he was offering trust and safety to someone who at a time had been his enemy, not that he really ever felt threatened by the Robins, much less this one. He'd never blame Nothing for his addiction issues. That was just business.
He watched the birds flutter over to the couch, peeking at each other a moment before Jon gave one of those sharp whistles, and they both looked affronted and sat down to play with the shiny bits on a cushion.
Reaching ever then to smack at Nothing's upper arm, a way he's seen Jon do when Simon cracks a joke that he doesn't necessarily approve of but won't chastise. "Not funny, and you're not my type." A second later about to chastise more, but the former Robin is speaking on as Jon nods.
"Make all the jokes you need; I may not always approve, but humor is a very valid reaction. If you ever feel like you have to rage it out, tell me; I know plenty of underground fighting rings that you could clean up at." When Matt was strapped for cash and Jon was too cheap to advance him, Matt would go fight in those circles. The boys would often drag Jon to watch and cheer with them. Not that he ever cheered.
That less haunted look was a relief, not that he would say it. "Absolutely, let Todd stay with the past; you owe him nothing. Let's also not give any credit to the bastard that helped create me; he was probably a rapist at best. Me carrying his last name is a punishment for being a bastard." He didn't always talk much about his life. "This house is under Whateley. I think we can do better than Lovecraft." He may not give Karen much credit, but these days he blames Gerald more, hes done the math, he knows how young his mother was and how not young his father was.
He had siblings here in town through Gerald, but they didn't know about him, and he wanted to keep it that way.
The slap to his arm was jarring, but not in an unpleasant way. He didn't flinch, didn't look away like he was waiting for more abuse to follow. In fact, his eyes went a little wide as a sharp bark of surprised laughter was jostled from his the depths of his guts. It wasn't a good sound, not happy or particularly healthy, but it was so much better than the broken voice of before.
Bruce had never joked like that. In the beginning, in his first months of living in that big, old manor, he'd been defensive and cagey. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. For his door to open in the middle of the night and for Bruce to take what he owed the man from his body. And when that never happened, he'd eventually gotten so tired of waiting for it that he'd just cornered both men at the breakfast table and made the offer himself because at least then the waiting would be over.
They'd both looked at him with so much pity, looked at him like he was a fragile, broken thing that would shatter apart if breathed on wrong. Alfred had tried to reassure him that nothing like that would ever happen to him again (a lie, though he hadn't known it at the time). Bruce had gently reprimanded him for thinking that either of them could be capable of such a thing. Bruce had spent the following month making sure they were never alone in the cave until Jason had started to relax. Neither of them had ever commented on it again.
That light swat and 'you're not my type' went miles further to soothe his mind.
He relaxed for the first time since he'd sat down, letting out a long breath that carried away some of his tension as he leaned back into the chair. For the first time he could feel the heat of the fire soaking into the leather of his boots, wicking away the rain from his jeans. He took a drag from his cigarette, savoring the warmth that rolled easily into his lungs, and his exhale took another few notches of tension with it.
"Fuck them both. We're better than them. Leave them behind, just be our own." He didn't add 'family', but the word was heavy in the air around them. In the house that Jon had rented to move Nothing into once his recovery was beyond the point of needing to be constantly watched. He'd packed pretty much everything he'd brought with him into this house and it had been left with Talia...but maybe there was something to be said for starting anew.
"....how much do the others hate me for leaving? Sam..?"
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Crane had been lucky; his short stint as a hitman never got him on the league's radar, and by the time he met Ra's no one thought about his start into the criminal underground. If he knew how cruel they had been to Nothing, it could change nothing, but he would glare more at them.
"Do you think this house is in my legal name? I'm a felon, child. I have a guy who can make a new identity. It will hold up well enough." Nodding then, as he sat back to pull the pack of cigarettes from his pants pocket. He shook two out as he lit one and held the other and the Zippo over to Nothing. An ashtray nearby, even if he didn't often smoke inside. "Fair enough, Nothing it is."
Nodding as Nothing explained, watching his boy and his birds. It was always strange to realize he had pulled together these abandoned creatures and claimed them as his own. "You felt obligated. She was a trusted adult who took care of you when you needed it most. It is understandable, even if her reasons likely had selfish intentions."
Taking a draw from the cigarette before speaking through it. "Just know if she ever comes back again, you do not have any reason to go with her. You can stay with me, and I feel it should be said, I expect nothing of you, child. Just for you to do your best, maybe go back to school if we can pull that off."
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Sending them both back over to the couch, he waited to make sure Craw actually settled in and listened before he lit up and drew in a lungful of heat.
"What, you telling me you have no intentions of rolling me over in the middle of the night? It's apparently all I'm good for." He glared, shaking his head and holding up a hand to fend off the disapproval he was fully expecting.
"I know. I know it's bullshit. I just...sometimes it really feels like that and I either have to make bad jokes about it or throw a fit. And throwing a fit is kinda pointless, so...here we are." He didn't sound particularly happy with that fact, but he did look a little less haunted when he glanced up to meet Jon's gaze once more.
"I don't care what my first name is, but...not Todd for the last? He was an abusive asshole who hit people who didn't deserve it and I'm done having his name. Just...whatever is on your fake will work, I guess. Since 'Crane' is a little too on the nose around these parts."
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He watched the birds flutter over to the couch, peeking at each other a moment before Jon gave one of those sharp whistles, and they both looked affronted and sat down to play with the shiny bits on a cushion.
Reaching ever then to smack at Nothing's upper arm, a way he's seen Jon do when Simon cracks a joke that he doesn't necessarily approve of but won't chastise. "Not funny, and you're not my type." A second later about to chastise more, but the former Robin is speaking on as Jon nods.
"Make all the jokes you need; I may not always approve, but humor is a very valid reaction. If you ever feel like you have to rage it out, tell me; I know plenty of underground fighting rings that you could clean up at." When Matt was strapped for cash and Jon was too cheap to advance him, Matt would go fight in those circles. The boys would often drag Jon to watch and cheer with them. Not that he ever cheered.
That less haunted look was a relief, not that he would say it. "Absolutely, let Todd stay with the past; you owe him nothing. Let's also not give any credit to the bastard that helped create me; he was probably a rapist at best. Me carrying his last name is a punishment for being a bastard." He didn't always talk much about his life. "This house is under Whateley. I think we can do better than Lovecraft." He may not give Karen much credit, but these days he blames Gerald more, hes done the math, he knows how young his mother was and how not young his father was.
He had siblings here in town through Gerald, but they didn't know about him, and he wanted to keep it that way.
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Bruce had never joked like that. In the beginning, in his first months of living in that big, old manor, he'd been defensive and cagey. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. For his door to open in the middle of the night and for Bruce to take what he owed the man from his body. And when that never happened, he'd eventually gotten so tired of waiting for it that he'd just cornered both men at the breakfast table and made the offer himself because at least then the waiting would be over.
They'd both looked at him with so much pity, looked at him like he was a fragile, broken thing that would shatter apart if breathed on wrong. Alfred had tried to reassure him that nothing like that would ever happen to him again (a lie, though he hadn't known it at the time). Bruce had gently reprimanded him for thinking that either of them could be capable of such a thing. Bruce had spent the following month making sure they were never alone in the cave until Jason had started to relax. Neither of them had ever commented on it again.
That light swat and 'you're not my type' went miles further to soothe his mind.
He relaxed for the first time since he'd sat down, letting out a long breath that carried away some of his tension as he leaned back into the chair. For the first time he could feel the heat of the fire soaking into the leather of his boots, wicking away the rain from his jeans. He took a drag from his cigarette, savoring the warmth that rolled easily into his lungs, and his exhale took another few notches of tension with it.
"Fuck them both. We're better than them. Leave them behind, just be our own." He didn't add 'family', but the word was heavy in the air around them. In the house that Jon had rented to move Nothing into once his recovery was beyond the point of needing to be constantly watched. He'd packed pretty much everything he'd brought with him into this house and it had been left with Talia...but maybe there was something to be said for starting anew.
"....how much do the others hate me for leaving? Sam..?"