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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-03 08:56 pm (UTC)(link)
The darkness of the room was appreciated, it always was when the lights when down after needles, blades, and other fun items were put away. This was what he came for whenever he could afford it, or his nerves were too shot for a bar hookup to bring him back down to a reasonable level of annoyance with humanity. Pandora had introduced them a long while ago, and even if the other was a little on the younger side than he'd actively seek. He always gave him the pain he needed, took his control, and never pushed his boundaries or rules. Well worth every penny.

The professor was already too tall, but now his too thin frame was fully stretched for the other, arms above his head, helpless as he liked it. More so when all it took was one word if he didn't like something and it would stop. Not that he has ever needed it. Angry marks marred down his body, bites and other marks mixed in with the dark body hair that he clearly never pays mind too outside of his face. Always perfectly shaved.

A sharp hiss escaped when his nipple was twisted so sharply, a shutter rolling through him before he tipped his head down, as an errant curl spilled over his sweaty forehead. "I can handle it myself." He spoke, here he never hid his accent, as a further layer of anonymity. Using only his first name, the only reason the worker knew he was a doctor had been a slip when paying. Not something he blamed anyone for, as his last name was not shared. Jon wrapped his lips around the offered cigarette. His head tipped back up as he took in a deep breath of smoke, before letting it curl out of his nose. Now, that was the stuff.

He probably wouldn't even bring up sex tonight. It was the pain he craved most, a miswiring from his youth, he could explain it due to his education, but he wouldn't. This was precisely what he needed. Though he did give Jason a sharp look, before speaking around the cigarette. "Told ya not to lie to me like that. I know what I am." He hated how he looked, scars and all, but a lifetime of being bullied didn't help. Luckily, he never chastises with any bite.
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-04 05:58 pm (UTC)(link)
As long as the professor didn't find out how young Jason really was? It was fine, though at this point it was far too late. A few years of at least once a month sessions. Pandora had chosen perfectly, even if he had been uncertain when introduced to the younger. At least until he was backhanded. That was when Jonathan knew that she had picked someone perfect, even if he didn't tick every box. He was more than good enough.

The elder was never looking for innocent in these moments, pain, release and having his control taken by force. That was what he was after. Jason was permitted to go further than the man himself ever would due to his own rules. So long as no bruises were visible outside what a suit could hide. He couldn't very well stand at the podium and teach the ingrates with love bites all on his neck.

The icy blue eyes watched as Jason's hands trailed back up his body, a softer touch to the pain, but one that he enjoyed. Watching the younger take the cigarette back. A muffled noise escaped when his jaw was grabbed roughly and the smoke was shared between the kiss. Jon chasing the taste into Jason's mouth and those teeth just a moment, more smoke eased out of his noise and the corners of his mouth as their lips stayed together a moment. A harsh breath sucked in when it broke, blue eyes dazed but staring down at the other as if he could see right through his soul. The eyes that creeped out many of his students.

"Yes, master." It felt so odd sometimes, but in these moments, their ages didn't matter. Jason was in control. Though, Jonathan knew he could be again if he used the word, but that was rarely, if ever, used. The doctor was a stubborn man and refused to give in. It was also his quiet way of saying they didn't need to have sex tonight. He was here for pain, and he had that. He'd be aching tomorrow as he was introduced to his new class, and that would be well worth it and any cruel words from the staff and faculty. He was tired, and it was starting to show, which was usually when he was ready to be done and pay Jason for the services. He still had to drive home after all.
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-05 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
Jon still tries to escape sometimes, but he doesn't push the hard lines when Jason puts his foot down. Occasionally, the aftercare makes him feel uncomfortable, but, logically, he knew it was important. Simply, not something he feels he deserves. He is lucky that the young sex worker makes sure he keeps the carbs up and remembers to drink some water. He so often forgets wrapped up in his work, and it helps him bounce back for the drive home, as he has never once stayed until morning.

Cleaning the wounds was something he didn't fight, he insisted on doing the same on the few rare nights he has hurt Jason in return. Those are bad nights that usually end much better than they start. If asked before all of this if he was attracted to muscular men, he would have said no, but getting to relax against that strong chest against the thick thighs? He had been converted.

The book was already on the table, if Jon or Jason kept it to bring each time didn't matter, but he enjoyed it. Occasionally, he would read while Jason played with his hair, making voices for each character. Tonight would likely be one of those nights.

A huffed noise, from how stiff his shoulders were, escaped as he dropped a bit against Jason's strong chest. His wrists might bruise, but he never minded that, always reminding that he wore an old wristwatch, and a leather cuff for a reason. He'd blame being in college in the early 2000s if anyone questioned the cuff. Moving easily with him to the bed as Jon took a second to pop his shoulder before taking a few drinks. Once he was sitting on the bed so that Jason could check over any marks. Jon reached for the book, those icy blue eyes peered up and rolled as expected.

"Lovely as the offer always sounds, I have work in the morning." Opening the book to skip to where they left off. "You are always welcome to stay since it is booked for the night. I don't care. We will get to Vegas when we get there, why rush it?" He always talked a little more after a scene than he ever does before. As if the rush of pain uncovers the person buried under all that stress.
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-05 03:36 am (UTC)(link)
He was right, no one else had ever had that honor. Jon always expected to be hurt by anyone he let close. That was why this worked. As long as money flowed to Jason, he could keep it as a business transaction in his mind. Granted, he had never heard of many sex workers who called with reminders to eat and wanted to know when they got home. Yet, he didn't mind. It was not like he had friends or the like.

"Plenty greedy, my ravenous friend. Though, I give you that, you can be very patient." The professor would sometimes jokingly call Jason a friend after the pain when the masks were down. It was more his way of thinking than really thinking they are. The stroking hand in his hair almost put him to sleep once in the reading, but that was fine. He enjoyed the feel of it.

When the chapter was finished, he marked the page and held it up to Jason, he'd let him keep the book until next month. Just so it didn't get lost in his stacks at home.

Pushing himself up after the kiss landed in his messy curls, a light, softer look offered back at the younger as he reached for the t-shirt and button up he had worn in. He dressed casually whenever he came, he could replace a t-shirt he would rather not replace a suit. Tugging on the black shirt, he nodded. Slipping his watch back on next. "I will text as soon as I get home. Don't worry. I've not forgotten in a few months." Pants grabbed next as he stood doing up his belt again.

Shaking his head amused, curls bouncing a little from the way Jason broke up the clusters. "Christ, never do that again." He gave a small laugh turning to ruffle Jason's hair, and even giving him a quick kiss. Taking out his phone then to transfer the funds. He always does before he leaves. "I'll remember to eat, good luck with whatever tomorrow is, I'll see you next time, Jason."

Grabbing his boots to slip on, he never ties them before he leaves, to head for the door.
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-05 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
They were unconventional, but as much as he appreciated all the little extras his dom gives. He refused to think of them as friendship. He needed that divide to not let himself grow expectant. He never expected aftercare, to be asked to check in, or to be reminded to eat. He appreciated them, but he wouldn't be upset if Jason didn't do those things now and then. Maybe a little worried, but he'd not admit it.

The first day of a new year was always hell for Crane. He once loved walking into this building, knowing he would be learning and one day become somebody. Once he pulled off becoming the youngest professor in the school's history, that was when the magic died for him. He saw behind the curtains, and it was nothing he had expected. Rude coworkers who belittled him for his lack of modern cut suits or spending frivolously on making himself look better. Being bullied was nothing new for Jonathan Crane. He just expected it to be different here.

It wasn't. Added with the fact that half of his students didn't even try? The doctor had been bittered within a few years of getting the role. He had only reached tenure the year before, much to the displeasure of his former mentor and his cronies. Crane kept to himself, worked, and then went home and work more or read. He didn't socialize and he rarely took excuses.

The freshmen were being given their tour, but the other grades were being given their first classes. It just so happened that it was Crane's second class when the freshmen were led through. "As I said, you turn in any assignment, even a minute late, and do not have a doctor's note or a death certificate. I will shred it. If you fall asleep in my class? You will be asked to leave, and I will not allow you to make up any points. Sleep is for home or out in your cars. Not in my classroom. I also do not give extra credit. Don't ask." He was still talking as the guide whispered to the group.

"That's professor Crane, he's brilliant, but just hope you don't get his class." One of the others, rolled their eyes.
"Crane's not that bad, if you do your work and don't mess around. He was my professor for two years." The first tour group leader rolling their eyes at the second one. "Okay, follow along."
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-05 08:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Jon had never once looked in to the worker he had grown close to over the last few years. He expected privacy, and returned that respect. Always firm on giving back what you are given. Nothing in life is free. He assumed Jason was from a broken home, all things considered, but he never dug.

It would be unethical for one. He still cared about the ethics of his professional role these days.

Standing before his class, dressed in a brown suit. Every mark from the night before hidden. Those blue eyes steeled, his hair styled as it usually was at the start of their scenes. The curls always had a mild of their own. No one would guess what the professor gets up too when he has the money and time. His natural accent hidden, as he firmly felt no one would take him seriously with his natural accent. Yet, he never tried to kill that smooth southern accent. It came in handy now and then.

Hours later, he was in his office. Reading a novel at his desk as he worked on his 4th cup of coffee, and a muffin he had grabbed earlier. Seeing the familiar picture and name pop up, he couldn't help the fond smile and rolling his eyes as he answered. His accent back to the Georgian as he pushed looked up to make sure his office door was shut.

"I'm eattin' I promise. I didn't forget today, Jason. Did you take care of whatever it was you were doing?"
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-05 09:19 pm (UTC)(link)
It was rare to get a hello, sometimes it happened, but generally, it was when the call was unexpected. Jonathan could almost hear the smile in that one word, sitting back in his chair before taking a drink of coffee.

"You don't like when I lie to you." He replied with ease. "I'll get some water once I'm off work. Alright?" He offered, amusement in his tone. Jason knew how to walk around his moodiness and that helped. It made him feel better without feeling like he was being handled with kid gloves.

"Ironically, I have the same amount of time. Imagine that." He didn't think much of it besides the irony of it. "Slept about as well as I ever do, but I am fine. Work is annoying as always, but that won't change. Did you sleep well?" Even if Jason was the dom, sometimes Jon liked to check in too. Wanting to return those extra perks in the only way he knew how.
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-06 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
That got a bit of chuckle from the older man. "I suppose I could do that, after I finish my coffee, of course. I am certain you understand." He needed that caffeine if he were to survive the first day. Making it about Jason made it easier to stomach, and he was less likely to fight back.

He would fight against such a label, but it was very true.

"I sometimes wish I could see through those rose-tinted lenses you see the world through." Something he has said before, always the pessimist when it came to his world views. "Something else we share in common. Well, I wish you the best with whatever this new venture is. Just remember, even if it is annoying, it can be rewarding too." A flush taking over his face some at the last bite. "The things you say..."
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-07 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
It was probably for the best Jason kept that to himself, at least until Jon saw him, or they were to meet again for another session. As long as Jason stayed out of his class and was older than most of his students, it would most likely be fine. He was far too at ease with his scene partner to want to find someone new.

That lower register sent a jolt up his spine. Oh god, not here. "Come on now, I have to return to work soon enough. Must you?" No real bite, but the embarrassment still in his tone. He hated how easily flustered he could get. It was all due to his upbringing and that ignored religious trauma.

"I won't, I promise. Same to you, even if I do not answer right away. Good luck with whatever it is. I know you will do good. Ignore the crowds, all that matters is you and your success, remember that."
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-08 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Jason earned a chuckle at the retort. The professor knew he was a hypocrite on the best of days. Those little stolen moments made bad days a little more bearable. Once the call ended, Jonathan finished the muffin, found some water and once that was done he and his coffee returned to the lecture hall for the rest of the grueling day.

At least there would be a new episode of Elvira tonight. That always helps, they are so rare these days. Jon didn't pay for his cable, his sketchy neighbor had set him up with it in exchange for helping one of his kids with her math homework when he and his wife got fed up. It wasn't a terrible exchange, the girl was at least smart, her parents? Not so much.

The next morning, when he arrived, his classes always started a little later as he refused to have a class at the crack of dawn. No, he opted to stay later, allowing for some of those students to try to squeeze in that class on top of their others. Seeing the bottle of water, he stared at it a moment like a snake about to strike. What in the world?

Moving the bottle of water and its paper towel into his office as he had a cup of coffee with him, he knew he'd have to keep an eye on whatever that was. He would drink it, though, Jason would likely call later and ask if he had time. This was how his first week back would go, the frightening his new students with how strict he was. Promises of no extra credit, as most of them never cracked the syllabus and learned that was a lie. This was one of those weeks when he wishes he got paid early to call upon his dom, but he had another week before that, and bills due before that as well.
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-09 06:06 pm (UTC)(link)
The frozen bottles of water were a mystery Crane wanted to solve. He would normally think it was a student trying to earn points, but no. It was too early in the semester for that. Next to none of his coworkers even spoke to him, short of the librarian, or Henry when he wanted to berate some choice of Jonathan's. It was such a shame their friendship had soured. He used to adore that man, but over the years they had become more rivals than anything else.

Though, Jon would never share why.

He had arrived to work late on that Friday, late for him was still before his students would arrive. His messenger bag over his shoulder, a cup of coffee in hand along with a cheap breakfast sandwich as it was a rare hungry morning. Seeing the Stanley cup on the podium he looked at it for a good moment like it was going to attack. What in the hell is this?

He had a few students who he had heard bragging about the prices of the cups like that one. The Professor thought it was mostly stupid, Stanley was a good brand. He had an old second hand vintage one he used on cold days when he wanted his coffee to stay warm, but this? Someone spent money on him, and there was no denying that.

Tempted to throw it away, he fought the urge, as he left it where it was to get ready for class. He had left it there through the first lecture, finally as his first class let out, one of the more chipper students that didn't really fear him bounced over complimenting the cup, letting him know it was a rare one, but one that suited him. Before he could even say anything else she had her phone out showing him all the accesories that could be bought for it.

"It's a cup... why would anyone need all of that?"
"It's for style Doc! Come on, you have to know that."
"Not really, but thank you, Miss Peterson."
"Of course! You really should get one of the pumpkin tops, it would be SO cute."
"That's quite enough." He sighed as she finally headed off and waved back to him. He had to fight not to roll his eyes.

It was then, due to how she had shifted the cup that he saw the engraving. "What..." Was all he managed to say. He had less than 10 minutes before his next class, so he couldn't message his scene partner. No, that message was clear. He knew the names and faces of everyone in his class, so he would have noticed Jason there.

When lunch rolled around, a message was sent to Jason.

I believe we need to talk, Jason. Before I cause you any anxiety, I am not terminating our contract, nor am I setting up a session. We simply need to speak. I found the engraving. I know it's you.
Edited 2025-01-09 18:07 (UTC)
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[personal profile] hosannas_of_anguish 2025-01-10 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
The doctor knew if he didn't state that, he'd probably send Jason into a panic. As strong as his dom was, he could see cracks all through the other. Ones that his education made easier to help patch without bringing too much attention too it.


Irritated was the right word for it. Furious would have been termination, but many things irritated Dr. Jonathan Crane. That was a fact of life.

Did you expect anything less? Jason, we can talk it over later. As it is, I know you are of age, and you are not my student. That and the years we have worked together are what keeps me from doing what you fear. Crossed a line? Maybe. More, I have questions.

That works, I have grading to do tonight as it is. 2pm, how about that place down in the Bowery, the gentrified place they built in the old cannery?


It had coffee that had good reviews, Jon also slept in on days he was off, so that was fine. If Arkham called tomorrow, he'd say he was sick. Jerry wouldn't bitch too much.

I'm drinking the damn water, stop worrying. Focus on your classes.

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